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I'll never believe your compliments.
You would understand if you'd been hurt as much as I have.
If you'd been put down as many times as I.
A girl like me won't accept what you tell me.
You can love me as much as you love life itself
But you can't tell me
Because I won't believe you.
It used to be that I was the only one I trusted.
I used to believe that honesty only came from within.
That when all else failed,
And when everyone else failed me,
I could count on myself.
I could make myself whole again.
I used to believe in myself.
I've never been religious.
Always believed that the only faith you need
Is faith in yourself.
Well, I've lost my faith.
I don't trust myself.
I don't believe in myself.
I don't want to be myself anymore.
Because despite all the insults that have been thrown my way,
Despite all the upset and hurt and pain I've endured,
Despite all the times the ones I've loved have let me down
The worst hurt of all is the hurt I inflict.
I've hurt myself.
I've hurt my family
And my friends
And the ones who were always there.
I can handle hurting myself.
The physical, the emotional:
It's familiar territory.
But I hurt you
And her
And him
And them.
My friends have always been the best of me,
And I let them fall.
I let myself become my worst nightmare.
Because in the end,
We all become the person we swore we'd never be.
You would understand if you'd been hurt as much as I have.
If you'd been put down as many times as I.
A girl like me won't accept what you tell me.
You can love me as much as you love life itself
But you can't tell me
Because I won't believe you.
It used to be that I was the only one I trusted.
I used to believe that honesty only came from within.
That when all else failed,
And when everyone else failed me,
I could count on myself.
I could make myself whole again.
I used to believe in myself.
I've never been religious.
Always believed that the only faith you need
Is faith in yourself.
Well, I've lost my faith.
I don't trust myself.
I don't believe in myself.
I don't want to be myself anymore.
Because despite all the insults that have been thrown my way,
Despite all the upset and hurt and pain I've endured,
Despite all the times the ones I've loved have let me down
The worst hurt of all is the hurt I inflict.
I've hurt myself.
I've hurt my family
And my friends
And the ones who were always there.
I can handle hurting myself.
The physical, the emotional:
It's familiar territory.
But I hurt you
And her
And him
And them.
My friends have always been the best of me,
And I let them fall.
I let myself become my worst nightmare.
Because in the end,
We all become the person we swore we'd never be.
Literature
The Quiet Thoughts of Butterflies
she says "I'm worried if I breathe
too loud the silence will
swallow me."
I watch her hands press butterfly
wings between the pages.
does she know that
I'm the queen of silence?
my corpse lungs and
graveyard lips; a decomposing
tongue lurking behind white-washed
tombstones. paint me with sunbeams,
Literature
i want to sleep
Kiss me to sleep
And bury me in the ocean
Away from this tragic world
Where I can dream forever
I'm ready to go back home
Above the dark rain clouds
And beyond the yellow stars
To finally find my peace again
Literature
Time
Ah, the first breath's sweet kisses,
Morning dew's fair promises
The love and life patient waiting could bring
Ready, wishing, and anticipating
Hopeful for the next fruitful morning to come
Desiring time in all its splendor from
Delighting in each and every new experience
Learning and growing from all life's experiments
But dreadfully missing the sight of a loved one
Joyously anticipating the morning sun
To lighten every mundane worry
And make the next day better, surely
But now as each second should pass,
Desperately remembering the sweet, passionate last
And wishing dearly that it would return
Back to happier, younger times w
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